hello im peter im new to this site,ive been looking for a site about aspergers for ages now but never have been able to find one lol,i would love people to tell me their views on these factors and how do they effect you and what do u feel you have got to do to cope,
Youre really excited about goin to this new event its a big rave with loads of people and u have been goin to them for ten years,u used to go on ur own but u feel u need booze and drugs to cope what do u do?
how do you cope with these situations ?
People who have asperger syndrome i wud love to know ur
views on all these things and the ones that dont have it,
- Raves
- supermarkets
- nightclubs
- busy pubs
- meal places
- post offices
- coping on your own
- your survival techniques
- do drugs effect your autism
- whats the amount u do when u go out?
- what combination of alcohol n drugs do u do b4 u go out?
- do u find it easy to talk to others wen ur not on anything?
- HOw do u cope if a pub is rammed and ur desperate for a drink?
- HOw do u cope calmly in queues without losing ur temper?
- how much drugs or drink do u need before a rave and how often?
- when do u kno wen uve done 2 much drink or drugs
- do u prefer illegals or legal highs wen u go out?
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try and force urself to go to this rave knowing ur be wid ur gf and a couple of mates who uve known for years who u used to go raving with, do u feel the need to take drugs and booze to cope with the noise of the rave but ur obsessed with rave music anyways,imagine you have taken drugs for ten years of your life,been to many music events even have been away for weekends on ur own banks,any social situation,i need alot of advice its very hard being an aspie and u wouldnt of thought that i had this disorder i do find myself very special though and im very clever at alot of things,hence i do alot of videos on youtube as u can see on my profile on here,as well as i have blogs n all,alot of people say im very brave and its mental some of the videos i record,most people wouldnt have the guts wud feel embarrassed or shownup if they did them videos,but i dont care what people think,thats the way u got to be in life,u shouldnt be bothered if others critisise u or say horrible things to you
i dont know if its me but im 27 now and i have been experimenting with drugs and legal highs for ten years now,when i was eleven i went to a boarding school called southlands school down lymington near the new forest in hampshire,i watched a video the other day from a play we did in southampton and i couldnt belive what i saw,i was looking at the floor the whole of the time i didnt make much eye contact with people i look lost and confused and dont kno whats goin on
u can imagine whats goin through my head at this moment in time cant you,when i left there i thought i would make loads of new friends it was very hard i got involved with idiets who used 2 take my money n all,i used 2 fink they was my friends,now im very careful who i trust ive got my best m8s and the ones that are my aquaintances and contacts if i need them to do anything for me or equire information on stuff, since 18.
I have been through many nasty relationships,domestic ones,i always seemed to end up with the nasty violent drugged up women,ive got a gf now and shes amazing i dont kno how she copes with me to be quite honest lol but she copes, she says im hard work,i love her so much,its nice for me to finally find a decent girl in my life,
We argue alot but we always sort things out,were two very diffrent individuals,she works alot and im unemployed which i absolutly hate,i was to bonkers for most of my exs lol i recently found out ive got ADHD haha omg mad dat is i got 2 spectrums and thats just crazy,im always hyper and i always get excited over most things,
it wud be nice to make sum good friends on here ones i can trust ones that wud accept me as i am because im a nutter but im a nice guy i have the kindest heart in the world and i help anyone that asks me for help,im very kind and caring,i make people laugh when they watch my videos and i get alot of praise for doing new ones,ive been doing videos since i was 18 haha long time hey?
WHAT DRUGS DO U TAKE AND WHY HOW DO THEY HELP UR CONDITION THESE ARE THE DRUGS IVE TAKEN N HOW THEYVE HELPED ME I WILL LIST THE DODGY EFFECTS N THE GOOD EFFECTS
MDMA AKA CRYSTALS XTC BISCUITS
since ive been takin mdma its helped me alot its helped me build up my social problems with general situations,it makes me feel happy,i feel like i wanna cuddle anyone and talk 2 anyone,have long convos with strangers its mad stuff but the thing is when ur on it sometimes it mite be the right time like in a pub in an afternoon but us aspies have got to cope we have got to self medicate ourselves because if a situation that scares us out there happens what do we do,we go into overload and we get angry n all and that aint good,booze makes me fight and makes me aggressive,i cannot rave unless im on sum sort of ecstasy legal high effects or the real thing,its the only thing that makes me relax but mdma makes u so relaxed u just wanna chill on a sofa and smile to ur hearts content lol,it makes me dance loads n i love it but u gotta kno bout it b4 u touch it,drink plenty of water usually i drink until i need water a bit dangerous but wen ur me its walk in the park wen u been in many rave situations and seen so much goin on,
COCAINE
i dont really touch dis anymore because its cut 2 fuck 2 expensive and makes u violent and psysically addicted,theyve got a legal high called novocaine and dmc these are like the real thing n they are legal n u can purchase them online,the illegal market is shit now the legals are takin over lol cocaine sometimes made me paronoid the buzz didnt last enough though,wen u had it it wud last 30 mins n then u wud have concentration n all for the rest of the day but u wouldnt get that massive high unless u did loads more so its a waste of money unless ur rich lol
SPEED AMPHETAMINE BASE
i was a basehead for many years it made me very paronoid ive totallly given up that shit now its horrible and nasty makes u very ill and can put u in hospital if u do 2 much its deadly,i used 2 love it it was one of the many things i used 2 take to help me with my illness i used 2 have the booze to boost me confidence and the speed to make me dance and not give a fuck what people thought,but its a very evil drug n i wud never touch it again,it also makes ur mouth go left to right if uve had 2 much of it,
Weed Ganja
this used 2 make me really chilled out ive only ever done it after a rave or a club never before hand it makes u 2 chilled its great for a comedown though,i aint dont it in ages,
when i go to a rave or a nite out clubbing,i usually ave sum booze n stuff to get me goin about 4 cans of cider for the train and 2 bottles of Wkd blue plus legal highs,i get on the train n sometimes its so horrible its rammed and u think everyones looking at you thats why i wear my baseball cap 2 stop people lookin at me,the things us aspies ave to go through hey,usually wen im out i get the stage of wired it means ur fucked and u can do wat u want and u feel invincible,when i aint like dis im scared i prefer the world of drugs than the world of reality lol
reality scares me,i like to be the odd one out whos dancing about in the pub showing everyone hes a laugh and a good person,when ur not on drugs n ur out life is nasty,u feel paronoid,u feel lost u feel left out u feel depressed u feel u cant be urself,with me drugs have helped me so much i used 2 do so much shit but not anymore. Ive cut right down now and ive learned from my mistakes,anyways people thats enough for now my hands are aching lol
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have u had similar problems to all of this how did u feel
what did u do 2 conquer ur fears exe
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